Wednesday, December 30, 2009



It’s been raining all day. I’ve been sitting at my desk watching the rain. I’ve pretty much turned my brain off today. I don’t want to think about it any more. I have the next four days off and other then doing laundry, I have no plans what so ever. I think I’ll get some movies and just relax. Just me, Molly the cat and Hawvie the plant.

Since I’ve been doing this, I made a lot of new friends. Some of them have shared their stories with me. It’s weird to think back to Junior High and remember everything you felt or thought and realize that 90% of the people felt the same way. You never are really alone. Everybody is fucked up in on way or another. Everybody is shy; everybody is awkward, some people just dealt with it better.

I had a fucked up childhood, but I wouldn’t change any of it. It made me who I am today, and I actually like myself.


  1. i like you too kid ;)
    glad we got past the shy bits and can now talk to one another.
    i liked this post.

  2. It is weird to realize that people do or did feel the same way as you did. We all feel alone but as one, we are not. We are alone in the idea that we are our own islands and the only thing we can be sure of is ourselves and our thoughts. Everything is foreign and we go through life perhaps not accepting our surroundings but definitely being more aware and thus forming our own thoughts and reactions.

    But it is always good to know that you're not the only one feeling alone or screwed up. And some people surely deal with it better because their reaction to feeling alone might be hanging with other people. Life is all about how you react to things.