Things have been pretty good the past couple days. I keep waiting for something bad to happen. It seems that when ever I am in a good mood, something comes along and shatters my happiness. Hopefully not this time. I've worked hard to this little happy place and I don't want to leave it.
I've decided to quite being such an attention whore. I'm not going to bug the hell out of people to read this. If they read it, cool. If not, no biggie.
Taking the lithium is weird. I get up in the morning and am compelled to go do something. I wake up in a good mood. i want to go out and talk to people. Is this normal? Is this what I've been craving? Is it changing me too much? Am I going to stop being me? I know I've wanted to be happy and well adjusted for a long time, but it's happening so fast. I kind of feel like Charlie in Flowers For Algernon. Not that I am in his position, But knowing whats going on and recognizing and accepting the changes that are going on within me.
Is this something I should have done years before? How different would my life be if I had taken the Lithium when I was twenty five like they wanted. would I be in the state I am in now? Would I want to be?